Heart of desire or deceit?

I often used to think it was cute to think of myself as a Moses type character…a guy who knew God, but broke all the commandments ( but now thinking about it a little more seriously—he broke the tablets out of anger as a result of the people’s rebellious spirit. And the Bible says in Hebrews 3:2 “. ..just as Moses also was faithful in all God’s house.” (That’s actually a very tall order to live up to, not to mention the fact we are to be not imitators of Moses, but of Christ." ) And as a side note, if the slaves had been this rebellious to their Egyptian masters, they never would have been slaves for 400 years…As it was God had them wander for 40. But my main point of writing this is to say I think my heart was much more similar to Pharoah’s or Jezebel’s. After all, they saw God’s hand at work in incredible ways, yet they stood their ground, too stubborn and hard hearted to be open to God’s message of salvation. The thing is, I have seen God work in wondrous ways, His ways are written in my heart, and His word lives in me, yet, so often, I still chose my flesh, my self, over God’s will, and His Spirit. How evil and corrupt I have been I shudder to think. I say I choose Christ as my Lord…let me say it with my choices yielded to the Spirit. Amen.